Anguish 16

Pain in my heart,
Dulled by the booze.
Love in my life,
Just not there at all.
A flirt with a stranger,
Risking my whole world.
Decisions I make,
Are just not me.
I play life's game,
No caution is used.
Acting a part,
Not chosen by me.
I've done this so long,
It's too easy now.
Done only for others,
Who respect me not.
I call on my God,
Please answer my prayer.
Please send some help,
To your lost child.
Show me the way,
So I'll take the first step.
My heart tells me I can't,
Go on this way.
I feel a new strength,
Come from a stranger.
I enter the light,
And feel love unbridled.
I turn my back,
On what I have done.
I only look forward,
To where I now go.
I start a new life,
As I now love me.
I have one last chance,
With strength and dignity.